Trippin'

I shut my eyes
Guided by your voice yet again
The phone pressed to my ear
My mouth gaping open
Like I'm breathing fire.

Whatever you command
I shall do
But it's all for you
All for you..

I see demons in the atmosphere
Head-banging T-rexes on my wall
Jeff the Killer staring into my soul as he lingers in the shadows
Your hands against my shoulders.

I want to scream
But it'll wake my parents up.
I want to hide
But I'm not a pussy.
I want to break something
But I'm not that much of a madwoman.

I can stay up all night
And listen to your perverted jokes
That our other friends would be traumatized from
I can laugh like a weasel
At anything you say
I can make noises for you
And listen to you say, "Damn."

But on the other end of the phone
I seem so normal
Even though
My imagination is taking over this sadistic reality I live in
And making it worse.

So I hold on by the thread
That is your voice
Hoping that you'll pull me back up to the surface of sanity
And that you won't let me fall.

I open my eyes
No longer guided by your voice
My tangled hair pressed against my ear
My mouth sealed shut
Like I'm holding in fire.